The Paterson Project
An attempt to engineer a song in reverse - from poem, to name, to poem again. The point of reference was originally the third chapter of William Carlos Williams' "Paterson: Book Four." Now, we tend to pick and choose somewhat randomly.
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Psalm Unknown: Last Night I Did Not Go Walking
Last Night, I Did Not Go Walking
Last night, I did not
go walking,
but sat, quietly,
on a curb.
Two calls, in two days,
had made clear
insufficiencies,
on my part.
Worrying, now, my
fingers found
loose threads at my sleeve.
More edges
unraveling. Some
thing to catch
I am sure. Alone,
I spoke soft,
but did not find words
to finish.
* * *
Later, inside, I
wrote a bit.
I did not write words
of value.
What is there to say?
I am not
a sewer of clothes.
I have no
talent with needles,
nor fingers
hardened by effort
and calloused.
"And yet," one might say,
"your coat sleeves
need mending. They will
not be sewn
themselves." I know this
is some truth.
* * *
I think, on some nights,
of a man:
hands full of small seeds,
and walking
between furrows of
rich, soft dirt.
With authority,
he scatters,
but never looks where
his seeds go.
"There are so many,"
he must think--
"What are a lost few,
here and there?"
* * *
I am no sower
of small seeds.
I have no talent,
or green thumb.
But at the end of
my sleeves, threads
are coming undone.
Who else sees
what the crows will take
but--now--me?
Last night, I did not
go walking.
I sat on a curb,
to think or
pray. Then my fingers
found edges,
coming unraveled--
or unsewn.
KMC 4/7/14
Wednesday, April 09, 2014
Psalm 51:On Drost's Batsheba met de brief van koning David
On Drost's Batsheba met de brief van koning David
The sound
of fire
in the brazier
wakes me,
and I know,
now,
what I have long
heard:
flames lick,
sputter,
consume,
and leave
not ash,
but
something
spent,
and old.
I have seen him,
tonight,
and I'm sorry;
running,
in your charges,
as I
have imagined them:
before bronze
and wood
penetrating
deeply,
and drawing
red, and
precious,
blood.
What kind
price
was this?
Paid
in blood-guiltiness:
yours, first;
and also
mine.
You age me,
king.
The lines
are appearing,
in the corners
of my eyes,
and my mouth;
between
the stretched skin
of my jaw,
and shoulder:
battlements,
overlooking,
a no man's
land.
I will not remain
as new.
And what price
then?
You age me,
king.
Your eyes
wander,
and are weighed.
Your lust
for me
burns,
and consumes,
and I
am not
ash--
but sold.
KMC 1/15/14
Psalm 51: Miserere
Miserere
It is my bouyancy, this quiet evil:
drawing me upwards, in this sea, this rest.
Resisting (as if it could not) the pull
of each of my hands, strained in deeping water.
Measures earned are measures surrendered.
The hard-beating of my muscles is fought
by air I hold in my own lungs, tendered
as a miser holds his coin: clutched, stored, caught.
My sin is ever before me, felt and
known by the shape of it, its sharp edges
pressing out, thinning skin, to rip, to tear.
My sin is ever before me: these hands
red from swimming, this face a grim rictus
breaking surface tension, gasping for air.
KMC 1/8/14
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Paterson: Book II, Chapter 1, p. 45--(so close are we to ruin every day!) II
(so close are we to ruin everyday!)
Graham:
you can have
my leg-skin
(when I die),
if you want it.
KMC 10/29/13
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Paterson, Book II, Chapter 1, p. 55-56
Capital of Call and
Response
Let me
say again:
the present
is never present.
Yes, I know:
a pun.
The implication, of
course, is our gifts
are behind us:
signifying old feelings
through old money
and at times
celebrating the
ongoing nature
of things.
But of course,
none of us can wait
to open them.
How could we?
Another call
and response.
A confirmation
of existence
a moment ago
and a moment
ago;
a string of pearls
run backwards
to ourselves.
Words!
Sing!
Song!
Thing!
But this sermon
is tired;
and I am
spent.
More sense,
borrowed from sense;
more pretense
borrowed from tense.
So much giving back,
so much taking—
and then
taking—
but always, like
sound, like
light, in
waves...
sound, like
light, in
waves...
My words, and
your words;
my words, and
your words
are currency.
my words, and
your words
are currency.
KMC 10/18/13
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Friday, April 19, 2013
Paterson: Book II, Chapter I, p. 61
To Be Good Dogs; or,
the Need for Resistance of Memory
I.
Listen: we see seconds of our futures.
It’s true: two Stanford doctors proved it.
Their experiment involved a woman
watching a computer screen as images
flickered past every two seconds or so.
Some were cheerful: puppies, rainbows, ice cream.
Others were horrible: just death, death, death.
What happened next surprised everybody
except the two doctors: the woman’s brain,
monitored from another room, began
to flicker—once before the horrors, not
at all before the joys. She had sensed them
more than two seconds before they were seen.
more than two seconds before they were seen.
Conclusions, for the doctors, are easy,
but less so for us.
What does it mean, that
we can see two seconds of our futures?
Not long enough to hit the brakes; not far
enough to stay away from the rotten
branch, the alley, the sophisticated
lover and his Gauloises.
Not fast
enough to keep us from wishing to go
backward, dreaming of different outcomes,
and the steps that would have arrived at them.
These two seconds have never arrested
the accumulation of our singular
story, drop by drop, a cave formation
of ourselves, out of ourselves, from ourselves.
We are seeing in the wrong direction.
Let me know what has been, singularly.
Do not let us see ourselves as desired.
Arrest not time, but my thinking of it.
What, then, is the truth of those few seconds?
Time, as if it were a mother, places
its hands on our cheeks, turns our faces
away from our first and our truest love:
the want of keeping, want of memory.
We, like bad children, pull away, hide
our faces, avoid contact with her eyes,
and refuse to see; instead, only sense—
and those few seconds, in ones and twos, lose
out, and are delayed.
They are resisted.
KMC 4/19/13
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Paterson: Book II, Chapter 1, p. 45--(so close are we to ruin every day!)
(so close are we to
ruin every day)
the waves begin so forcefully
and move so rapidly light flecks from them
in urgent bursts
of unbelievable whiteness.
Windows break, as bodies also break,
and thousands of eyes collect, signal, and transmit
a thing not yet filtered, understood, or seen.
...
Death pushes me from death.
The spectacle adds distance
in years, thoughts, and means:
I cannot die like this.
I know your secret, my betrothed:
you are not a ghost,
you are a lover. Like a lover,
you are not a ghost,
you are a lover. Like a lover,
I know you less for your body,
and I make you exotic.
I cannot die
Like this.
I will sleep in.
...
8 minutes ago,
the sun erupted
like a million
Hiroshimas;
plasma flared
one hundred thousand miles
into empty space;
and light explodes
across the foot of my bed
like a bomb.
KMC 4/16/13
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